There's quite a long period before getting a settlement in my further studies. It's however being decided, planned, drafted for long, I still don't encounter any emotional fluctuation for now on. I'm puzzled by this kind of feeling. Am I really prepared for the cultural shock, or I had been destined to be in the lower-ranked category which makes me feel too comfortable with nothing is going to be done with me? I realize that I had been slackened off myself most of the time. The initiative of learning something brand new had already faded. It's not the lifestyle that I should own and yet I want. But, why? What's going on with me? Those newspaper articles which I collected before are like a stake of papers which worth not a penny for me now. They were found intriguing during the past, but not now. "Global warming", "Pollution", "Cancerous Cells", "Radiotherapy"...these were my favourites. However, in present, I need a few days to finish reading a short article and completely indulge myself in it. It's shameful! I can't even blame with the busy daily-working life and physically exhaustion after back from work. Those are unreasonable and lame excuses. I wonder that there's someone tap on my shoulder and tell me not to give up or give me stern warnings with hostility. But, I know it's useless. Motivation comes from own mean. I do believe. I just want the sedantary lifestyle to be demolished and wish for another yield of achievement. I will try my best!